Blog post by Cassie, our 2013 Crown Point Senior Model

I’ve asked our TLP 2013 Senior Models to blog over their senior year about local reviews, a day in their life or even silly things we did not know about them…
Well, first up is our very own Crown Point Model, Cassie, who has written a little something you may not have known about her life recently and where she gets her inspiration from…

“For almost a year now I have been dealing with lower abdominal pains.  Sometimes it wouldn’t always hurt, but when it did, I would be out for the count.  A couple weeks ago, I found out I had a bladder disease, which then caused me to basically go into bladder failure.  I didn’t know what hurt me more, the pain from it all or watching my mom and family come see me at the hospital with worry written on their face.

After 4 weeks of treatments, I was told I wasn’t responding to them anymore.  Without the treatments, I am in a lot more pain than anyone would wanna be in.  I remember coming out in the waiting room to my mom and having to tell her that they didn’t know what else to do.  This wasn’t life or death, but it was hard enough to influence my everyday life.

Since that day, I have to be careful of what I do.  If I do too much I could have a lot of painful spasms going through my body.  If I do too little, I feel depressed that I wasted a perfect day.  Being 17 should be one of the best years of my life. I should be excited about my senior year…I should be planning what I’m going to be wearing for homecoming, prom and my senior class picture.  Instead…I’m planning when the next time I’ll be getting a treatment.  When will this all stop?  How much longer?
I just wanna live a normal life again.  I don’t wanna have to worry about if my plans are going to be canceled because I’m gonna be in the hospital again or if I have a treatment that day.  I know everything happens for a reason, but what was the reason for holding me back from the best year of my life? 

I know if I didn’t have my mom in my life, I wouldn’t be where I am today.  She shows me everyday that no matter what hand of cards you are dealt in life, you will always win.  She battles lupus, fibromyalgia, a bleeding disorder and so much more.  If my amazing mother can go through all that and still do her best everyday…then I can be strong enough to try and make it through all of this.”

 ~ Cassie, 2013 TLP Senior Model

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